Pre-Season 2005 It's coming.. and I, as usual, don't know if I'm ready. I never ever stick to my training, unless I'm basically belted down to it by a coach.
It's dishearting, yes. I always have been stubborn about life, about pushing others to do things... ya know always the leader? But when it comes down to it, I can't do it for myself. Remember for my birthday I had a post about things about life. About things I want to change... well this is one of them. Doing this for myself... this has to be one of the best things I could be doing for myself, and I just have to keep reminding myself how to do that.
Now to only figure out how to keep reminding myself. Training logs never have worked, neither have nice ass bikes... I need to find it, inside... Yeh this is huge gut wrenching post, but I have a day to psych myself up to do this. To have my ass back in shape by March. Even if I'm not racing, I want to be in shape to be able to if I wanted.
It's dishearting, yes. I always have been stubborn about life, about pushing others to do things... ya know always the leader? But when it comes down to it, I can't do it for myself. Remember for my birthday I had a post about things about life. About things I want to change... well this is one of them. Doing this for myself... this has to be one of the best things I could be doing for myself, and I just have to keep reminding myself how to do that.
Now to only figure out how to keep reminding myself. Training logs never have worked, neither have nice ass bikes... I need to find it, inside... Yeh this is huge gut wrenching post, but I have a day to psych myself up to do this. To have my ass back in shape by March. Even if I'm not racing, I want to be in shape to be able to if I wanted.
