Dumb Dumb Dumps


12:30am.

Can't sleep for the life of me.
Sleeping in maybe?
Too much on my mind probably.


The past few days I've gotten further and further in the dumps. Got to the point tonight that I barely wanted to talk to my gf, or my roommate about anything at all.
Instead I took a long shower and thought even more.

Now I'm doing a bunch of nothing on the internet and wanting to kick myself in the head. (Andrew this is where you would come in.)

I have learned to love my job, and make the very best out of the situation.
I love my roommate, he is one of the sole reasons living up here is bareable.
The riding is becoming excellent.
The weather has finally turned for the best.

Yet...
I'm 4 hours from the girl I love.
The girl that is my sanity.
My roommate even being as great as he is. Isn't my old friends.
No Andrew.
No family.
No cats to cuddle with.
No dogs to cry on.

I won't be seeing Andrew till late summer, or even early fall.
No clue when I'll be seeing the parents.
When Jeannie is moving up here is now a huge mystery.
I tried to find a dog, and failed horribly.


At times I wish I was the old me that would drop this job like it meant nothing.

But it does mean everything.


Now what?